A Little Frown Today

Last Friday, the 29th of June, I went to see Dr. Forster, the Hepatic Surgeon at KU Cancer Center.  The news was good and bad.  My surgery is scheduled for Aug. 14th but there was a discussion that had to take place first between Dr. Forster and Dr. Lemons, the Intervention Radiologist.  Along with the tumor that showed up well on the CT Scan, Dr. Forster was a little concerned about a rather large shaded area that was undefined.  Therefore, Dr. Forster intended to talk to Dr. Lemons regarding this shady area to get an impression regarding identification.

About 2 hrs. ago I called Dr. Forster's office to find out the result of the discussion.  The nurse picked up and answered, I gave my name and proceeded to explain why I was calling.  She immediately interrupted me to say that she knew who I was and that she was in the process of scheduling a special CT Scan.  She told me the name of the scan but I don't remember it now because my mind immediately flew to all sorts of bad scenarios.  This has me very nervous. 

I have worked hard to put a positive spin on all that's going on.  The new tumor is quite small so it was fairly easy to tell myself that this will be another chapter but can be dealt with and then I can move on to the future.  Now, I'm scared.  That shading shouldn't be there, and it wasn't there in the April scan.  Although I know that I shouldn't dwell on this one thing, it's really hard to do otherwise.

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Because He lives, I can face tomorrow.

Because He lives, All fear is gone.

Because I know He holds the future,

And life is worth the living just because He lives.

Amen